He's slowing down alot

Well Mr Beebs seems alot less energetic since his nuetering. At least that's one of the reason's he seems so old all of a sudden.I also wonder if the swollen prostate is shrinking inside him or if there is something hiding in it like a tumor. I am hoping for the best but facing the fact that if it is cancer I have some hard decisions to make. These last 2 years have been nothing but hard decisions for me regarding this poor pup. It's an everyday job keeping him happy, pain free, and doing as much as I can to give him quality of life. I could wring that surgeons neck for what he's done to my guy. My life will never be the same ....this situation has propelled me into an entirely new focus and drive in my life. To think that an ACL surgery could lead to such life altering conditions is beyond anything I could have dreamed up. I'm glad I didn't know what I know now.It would have sent me over the edge along time ago....but I'm grateful my beautiful dog Beebers has redifined my life and my life's purpose .So in a way this hardship has given me new determination and a sense of direction.That in and of itself is a blessing...and leave it to an 80 pound ball of loving fur to provide it.