Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Mr Beebs May 18 1997- July 19 2009


When I am able to grasp the enormity of this loss I will write the tribute my boy deserves.Until then I take every day moment by moment as every thing around here reminds me of the Beebers. I won't wash his bedding or toys...and poor Sydney is lost without him. He scans the horizon for his Dad as we walk in the park. Maybe if we are lucky he really does see him.I hope so and deep inside I know he's okay and there is peace in that place. In time

the pain will be replaced with the joy he created in our lives.This picture was taken on our last camping adventure one week before he passed away. My angel

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

The fun never stops on Pawson Rd


Mr Beebs will NOT use the new wheel chair in fact he bit at it which really upset me. The owner of the company actually came by and we tried a dozen different techniques and to no avail. The stump continually slides out and it must be painful for Beebs. At this point I figure I can carry him around the house and yard but my husband comes with me to the park and we both take an end of the towel and walk him at his pace while he sniffs. He seems to like the company and the assistance and is a happy clam as usual. I now have 2 $500. wheel chairs which i would be willing to loan to anyone who has a dog that would use them. Maybe I could put a flyer up at the animal hospitals around and perhaps someones dog will benefit. He is a willful dog and I get the feeling he feels trapped in the cart and is uncomfortable because of the stump/end of the bone being under pressure. I was in tears about this last week but realized I have done all I can do and that in the end he like myself will depart this world. I feel at peace now..I'm going to play it out until he gives me the "I'm ready" sign. As of now he eats like a horse and still gives off such a strong alpha male vibe that big and small dogs alike cower when he makes even a peep! The other day in the park a little Hungarian dog pounced on him and when he let out a rumble the dog rolled over on her back and licked his jowls! Even as a cripple he still has the authority thing all over em. Sydney had 6 teeth pulled and no I must brush his teeth every night...give them anti biotics, deramax, tramadol....Like I say the fun never stops around here and I am developing very powerful arms and shoulder muscles!

We cancelled our sailing trip up to Province town Mass. and instead rented a motor home so we could travel up to Maine and take the pups with us. I'm actually excited to go and have my babies with me to look after. It may be Mr Beebs last vacation with us so I'm going to make it a great one!