Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Mr Beebs son Sydney is very ill


I had just lost Beebs in July and a month later found out that Sydney had cancer and cardio myopathy. We have been on a tread mill of surgery and meds ever since and the questioin is what will end his life first. His heart or return of the thyroid carcinoma? I was so shocked by this news I started having my own chest pains. The cardiologist told me he has from 3-6 months to a year at the top end. I had so hoped to make up for all the time lost with a handicapped Mr Beebs and make it up to Sydney...

Last night I made a duck and he and my husband ate it.He gets liver, heart, beef, ice cream cones..afterall what I waiting for? He already has a heart condition and cancer floating around his body.We go for slow walks and he sets the pace.Rides in the car.I wish I didn't know what I know because everyday I look at him and wonder when is his heart going to stop. Its why I haven't written in so long...because I miss Mr Beebs so much and know Sydney will be joining him soon. I've revolved my life around those 2 boys and don't know what I'm going to do with myself when they are both gone.